05/29/2018 05:56 PM  projections Current mood:  thoughtful warm light           i love the way it dances in your eyes           just inches away           from mine           just a few seconds           delay           we share the same frame                          how precious and metal           passing synonyms and laughter           the most wonderful sound           to me           just inches away           inbound           holding incoming signals                           not hands old machinery, elementary metaphors           like a child watching a movie           falling in love with a star           my fingers brush the projection           and i feel your –                                                                 dust in the air. and i love the way i think the ash smells on your fingertips. 0 Comments

04/30/2018 04:26 PM  music stuff~ Current mood:  high A song you like with a color in the title "Pink Maggit" - Deftones A song you like with a number in the title "1 Trait Danger - DROVE MY CAR [remix]" - 4lung A song that reminds you of summertime "Summertime" - My Chemical Romance (lol) A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget about "Slide" - Goo Goo Dolls A song that needs to be played LOUD like... every single one, but especially? "Gutwrench" - Alekhine's Gun "Witness" - Mindless Self Indulgence "Gateways" - Dimmu Borgir "Welcome Home" - Coheed and Cambria A song that makes you want to dance "Don't Stop Me Now" - Queen A song to drive to "Witness" - Mindless Self Indulgence A song about drugs or alcohol "Manipulator II" - Knocked Loose A song that makes you happy "F*** YEAH I FEEL LIKE KRILLIN" - 4lung A song that makes you sad "My Immortal" - Evanescence A song that you never get tired of "I'm Just A Girl" - No Doubt (this is one of the first songs i can ever remember hearing in my entire life and i still love it so!!! yeah!) A song from your preteen years "Tik Tok" - Ke$ha (still fckin bangs) One of your favorite 80’s songs "Play With Me" - Extreme A song that you would love played at your wedding "Good Enough" - Evanescence A song that is a cover by another artist "Zero" - Evanescence (are u seeing a pattern lolol) One of your favorite classical songs "Four Seasons" - Vivaldi A song that would sing a duet with on karaoke "Bring Me To Life" - Evanescence A song from the year that you were born "Freak on a Leash" - Korn (1998!) A song that makes you think about life "So I Thought" - Flyleaf A song that has many meanings to you "All I Want Is to Be Loved" - Freya A favorite song with a person’s name in the title "Isobel" - Bjork A song that moves you forward "Breath and Chime" - Freya A song that you think everybody should listen to literally everything on this list A song by a band you wish were still together "My Room" - Lifer A song by an artist no longer living "Papercut" - Linkin Park A song that makes you want to fall in love "All Around Me" - Flyleaf A song that breaks your heart "The Last Song I'm Wasting On You" - Evanescence A song by an artist with a voice that you love "Powerlessness" - Jeff Rosenstock and also of course any song by Evanescence A song that you remember from your childhood "All of these Dreams" - Phish A song that reminds you of yourself "Vicarious" - Tool 0 Comments

10/19/2017 11:58 PM  burning virgins Current mood:  ashamed the unbetrothed lies under the gravel dust a gouge in the earth over heart and fist clench jaw and hand until something combusts a flame in the chest touching wax to lips nothing to replace what has been burned your jealousy breaks your neck nothing to replace what has been burned your jealousy steals your breath don't believe anything your mother tells you the nights under broken glass moons to smash if God says anything, ignore him too the cross can fail you, the heart is rash i pray to see my destiny i pray to take your misery i'll never want anything more nothing can replace the virgin girl nothing to replace what has been burned your jealousy breaks your neck nothing to replace what has been burned your jealousy steals your breath nothing can replace the virgin girl 0 Comments

10/14/2017 12:45 PM  im about to EXPLODE Current mood:  tested my brother thinks its cool and fun to be a complete a**hole ALL the time, EVERY DAY!!!!!!! he took my car keys and left without asking, then stayed out WAY past curfew, then acted like mom is crazy for yelling at him for it. and thats not counting the 22 darts he shot into my bedroom wall before he left. he tries to bitch about mom to me like we're bffs in middle school or something. that is our MOTHER!!!! maybe she isnt the best person in the world but holy hell he has no right to talk about her the way he does.  now hes just laying in bed singing along badly to classic rock like he never did anything wrong. like theres no one trying to f***ing sleep??? its almost midnight! Oh My God!!!!! i am just tired of this sh*t every single day. he acts like hes too cool for our parents love and attention. but once he moves out and loses it, then he'll want to take it back. then he'll know how i feel. everyone in this family is so f***ing selfish. no one ever thinks about anything but themselves or aidan. yeah, i get it, cancer and stuff, but hes perfectly healthy now so can i talk about how im severely traumatized???? nope! can my parents love and support me? No! Ex Dee! xD i want to die  0 Comments

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