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I wish I could tell him.I wish I could tell him how much he means to meI wish I could tell him he's the reason I look forward to the morningsI wish I could tell him that when I'm sad I wish he was there with meI wish I could tell him his soft voice can calm me with one wordI wish I could tell him I blush whenever I think about himI wish I could tell him he's one of the few people I could never get tired ofI wish I could tell him that ever since he touched my scarf I've held onto it for comfortI wish I could tell him that I missed him after the weekend endsI wish I could tell him I think of him when I think of the kindest person I knowI wish I could tell him I want to touch his long fluffy dark brown hairI wish I could tell him his eyes look like emeraldsI wish I could tell him I love himA/N Tell me if this sounds creepy. I don't want to sound obsessed

hiiii there wlcm 2 my page♥ im 18 yo. im tryna write smth in this blog section for the first time so im a lil bit shy..i assume we all here for the sme reason self expression n share w others wht is close to tha soul. mayb by sharing fav music or wtw else u keep in ur heart. and all these cute profiles reflect our inner child cuz everyone has a child inside,u kno.. btw thats cool if u haven't kill ur child yet. he/she helps to still be able to dream like in childhood w/o any doubts n fears imposed in real life.. here we can make friends n be whom we alw wanted to be as kids, at least in virtual space.. tbh i feel like i never rlly grew up. hope to find here cool ppl tht hv smth in common w me.  jus wanna simply chat n hv fun haha. im pretty easy to talk to i jus need smth to talk bout lol. idk wht else to say, leave comments or msg me, i would like to know u^^

god it's been a while since i've logged into this hellsite. a lot has happened but also, not much has happened. my mental health has gone to sh*t once again and i started restricting and starving myself. so sick of being fat. it's time to do something about it. and no one really cares, so i'm not completely surprised. i have an s/o, but he's like f***in 28. sometimes i feel like i'm settling because i cannot be bothered to be with other guys or get to know anyone anymore. i isolate myself all the time and i just cannot be bothered to get new friends. i just want everyone to f*** off. but he's a good guy, even if he is much older. i just don't care anymore.i hate myself.

hello.new entry ig. just like i said, i'd forget to write...i'm a prophet.theres nothing in particular i want to talk about so i'll ramble ig.heres three recent things.1) i saw a coyote today. it made me happy. it was super cute. i was running up the hill and saw this little creature. since i thought it was a dog and since im scared of dogs, i stopped. i looked around for another person, an owner but saw nothing. then i let out a sigh. i guess the little dude smelled me or heard me idk so its little ears went up and he looked my way. we kinda just stared at each other. i didnt keep going. i was in its territory so the last thing i wanted to do was stress it out. idk maybe if i kept going i wouldve been eaten. wouldnt that be funny?2) i told jaden to stop crying and to go to sleep last night. lol was it harsh?i didnt mean to, i was actually asleep. he hasnt been feeling well. i feel bad.i cant do anything.ive recommended some stuff. its his choice. i told him i would make him little recipies and i would. so imma start working on that. hes young and if he helps himself now, it can be of great benifit later in his life. ik if we do something about it now, we can make it go away.idk. maybe. its what i hope and wish.3) i told my therapist that ik im worthy of living a happy life. i think she thought i didnt think like that. maybe in the past i did. not anymore. believe me, im worthy. but what i told her after was that that happy life isnt for me. mostly bc i dont think its possible to reach it. so yeah im worthy but that happy life is running away from me at full speed. i want it but it doesnt want me.ah heres something else thats interestingim sick of water. i cant do it. last night i drank like 60oz in a sitting. i was peeing like crazy. i think its funny....im finishing another 60oz right now. yikes. 

maggie was kinda busy today. they finished a super cute drawing of me and a banana:) its my discord profile picture now. i love it! they made sorbet today! i bet its really good! we roasted white people food lol. ngl its pretty nasty haha especially when compared to delicious mexican food. they spammed a bunch of stock photos. stock photos are weird im not really sure what theyre for tbh, or why there are so many. maggie had to pee a lot yesterday. they drank a f***ton of water and they had to pee like every 20 minutes. maggot said that their pee looked like water lol, and i got roasted for not drinking enough water and too much soda(theyre not wrong tbh) they called it gumbo lmao. and then they made me get a chub in the kitchen, and i had to walk past my mom lol. they called me their little cracker :)) then maggie laughed at me cus i used to like asian girls, and frozen food lol. we talked about what ive told my mom about them, and they were happy that my mom was ok with it. i like when maggie bullies me. also, maggie said that sam could be a good gender neutral name. i like sam as a nickname tbh. 

hello all,i have had a day filled with ups and downs, but i am thankful to have found this site; it's very exciting. i planned on getting a lot done today but instead got very distracted by this site and then got a migraine. :[ thankfully, i am ok now, though! i was reading a fic earlier and then i had pupusas for dinner, which were super delicious, and am now listening to yeule. she's so cool. alright, that's all for right now. i hope whoever is reading this is having a good night or day. ♥with love,nue angel

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avoiding the songs that fill me with your auraif i wanted to stop it i could but its too soonour story wasnt supposed to end this fastor was it?things dont have to last forever to serve their purpose but why would it be so short?was the purpose to kill me?to show me what i cant have and leave me in the dust?id never chase anyone but should i start?moving on doesnt have to be public, maybe my publicity shows how stuck i am on you.slam my head into the wall and drink it down.  

to match technicolor with the main seven.we're both colorful yet you're so hinged in comparison.you pour out your heart.i throw back what i know deep down is just lip service. to match his energy you'd cross the line.to match his love you wouldn't be you.to be him you couldn't,yet I let you fill the space.your patterns don't match but I still floor it.every day he fills my mind.every day i pull the plug and drain.patching the holes only to replace with something softer and sweetereven when i crave the edge. im not ready yet, but i want to look so.id give anything to hear him.id give myself away but he'd give it back. 

an idea so sweetwill the berries wear off?will i one day find that youre acidic and cruel?optimism is the best medicine and doubt is the sickness.

the obsession tapers out.eleven days gives me 1:11s with a new.my brain can other you into a side character and i bathe in the power i pretend i have.we’ll meet again in time, i won’t force it, but for now i’ll take whats waiting for me.something forgotten for years and picked up again.it’s what i have now and what we will be as independents.

And if your heart stops beatingI'll be here wonderingDid you get what you deserve?The ending of your lifeAnd if you get to heavenI'll be here waiting, babyDid you get what you deserve?The end and if your life won't waitThen your heart can't take thisHave you heard the news that you're dead?No one ever had much nice to sayI think they never liked you anywayOh take me from the hospital bedWouldn't it be grand ain't it exactly what you plannedAnd wouldn't it be great if we were deadOh deadTongue tied and oh so squeamishYou never fell in loveDid you get what you deserve?The ending of your lifeAnd if you get to heavenI'll be here waiting, babyDid you get what you deserve?The end and if your life won't waitThen your heart can't take thisHave you heard the news that you're deadNo one ever had much nice to sayI think they never liked you anywayOh take me from the hospital bedWouldn't it be grandTo take a pistol by the handAnd wouldn't it be great if we were deadAnd in my honest observationDuring this operationFound a complicationIn your heart, so long'Cause now you've gotMaybe just two weeks to liveIs that the most the both of you can give?One two,One two three four

Howdy world. Today is gonna be ashort post cuz i am PISSED. So as you know, there were a lot of parties goingon during Halloween, and like th eday after a bunch of ppl went to this thing called foco which is basically just a bunch of kids with no masks throwing a party in fancy dresses. I didnt get invited to one, but even if a i did i probably would go just for safety. Well TURNS OUT after that weekend of germ spreading, TWO FRIKIN KIDS tested positive, and the parents SENT THEM TO SCHOOL ANYWAY......UM.....WHAT?!?!?I literally could have walked past someone who had covid yesterday at school. Im really mad that parents can be that stupid to send sick kids to school, and also let kids go to parties in the first place! And NOW my entire school is shut down until after Thanksgiving Break. They just ruined it for an ENTIRE school. Im mad.So yeah, thats my rant for today. Imma go cry now, peace.Cya Never!- Hanna ♥